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[personal profile] ct_7567 2018-04-30 08:29 am (UTC)(link)
[ A teacher. All right. He can probably do that. The only teachers he has any familiarity with are the ones who instruct cadets but it can't possibly be that different - and he knows that there are plenty of kids who attend regular classes and, failing that, rich kids who have their own personal tutors. ]

Yeah. We can work with that, [ he says slowly. ] I'll act as your tutor. Rich kids get... [ He waves one hand vaguely, as though to describe something he has no experience with with gesture alone. ] Taken around enough.

[ All right, so the only frame of reference he has for that are holos, knowledge of some Senators' children and, of course, a holobook or two that someone had smuggled in as contraband.

He finds himself considering what it must be like to be Jar Jar's tutor and is suddenly, deeply glad that he's with this pesky youngling instead. ]


We're on a trip for your own edification.
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[personal profile] ct_7567 2018-05-13 12:35 am (UTC)(link)
Tensions have been rising for a number of years now, but active warfare's only been going on for the past two years.

[ Rex seems to have finally relaxed now that they're moving at a decent clip, safe in their little makeshift bunker. If they're going to get into any trouble for what they're doing, it'll be once they get to where they want to be, so that'll be quite all right. ]

With any luck, it won't be lasting much longer.

[ Both sides are running out of resources, and quickly. The speed at which they've been tackling each other can't be sustained. Even someone as gung-ho as Rex can see that every time he sends out a request for more equipment and gets less and less as time goes by. ]
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[personal profile] ct_7567 2018-05-22 09:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The look Rex shoots her way is a little startled. Nobody's ever asked him that question before. Hell, nobody's ever even mentioned it, not even among brothers; it almost seems like bad luck to plan that far ahead, too ego-driven, too confident in one's own abilities to even begin to think that you are the one that will live when everyone else has died. ]

I haven't planned that far ahead, [ he says bluntly, tilting his head back a little to rest against the rumbling cart. ] Best not to rely on a future that may not happen.

[ What will he do? He has no significant skills, not like some of his men. Many of them would be fine - they're brilliant men, storytellers, artists, doctors, technicians, sharp with one thing or another. Rex has always been more of a jack-of-all-trades. Good at nothing, really, beyond being a soldier. It's all he's ever wanted to be. ]

I imagine I'll continue to serve. Even after the war is over, there's plenty that will need to be done that has nothing to do with fighting.
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[personal profile] ct_7567 2018-06-04 08:28 pm (UTC)(link)
In the military, of course.

[ Again, he's surprised that she even has to ask. There's only one type of service he's capable of doing, and that's to stay exactly where he is. What he doesn't bother saying is that the type of service likely doesn't matter - for as long as General Skywalker remains in the military, Rex intends to stay by his side. He won't steer them wrong, he's certain of it, and he can think of precious few others he'd rather fight beside. If not General Skywalker... well, he sticks to his Jedi. That's what they were bred for.

If the Jedi extricate themselves from the military entirely - a strange notion; he is objectively aware that they were never meant to be soldiers, but he has never known any of them to be anything but - then he'll have to reassess things. That's a bridge to cross when he gets to it. ]


After the war ends, plenty of worlds will still require aid and resources, to be freed from the Separatist regime. I'll do what's needed to restore them. I doubt they'll require all of us, but there will be no shortage of work to be done.
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[personal profile] ct_7567 2018-06-12 01:30 am (UTC)(link)
We'll win.

[ Rex says it with the utmost certainty because he has to. This is what his entire life has been for up until this very moment. There's not a chance that they'll lose. There can't be, otherwise everything that they've done, the core at their very being, will have been for nothing. ]

If the Republic falls, I fall with it.

[ ................No he won't. ]
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[personal profile] ct_7567 2018-06-14 01:46 am (UTC)(link)
That's a big if. I've got no place in governance, though, not even now. That'll be a task for others: governing bodies; Jedi; community leaders; politicians; planners.

[ A lot of people who are what he's not, in short. Rex knows nothing of politics, knows nothing of what it takes to build a community, let alone a Galactic Republic, knows nothing of human nature and how to herd civvies around. He's a damn good soldier, but that's all he is. ]

Let's hope it never comes to that.
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[personal profile] ct_7567 2018-06-16 07:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The corner of Rex's mouth quirks. ]

You've got a lot of faith in me for someone you've just met. No, I know my place. I'm a damn good soldier, but that's all I am.

[ Rex shifts where he's sitting, getting comfortable. To admit to his own shortcomings anywhere outside of his area of expertise isn't an uncomfortable experience for him. He knows who and what he is. To be honest about that is a strength, not a weakness. ]

I don't know enough about what an ordinary life is like to have any desire to shape it.

[ He'll fight for them. That's all. It's up to the people what they do with freedom once it's been granted to them. ]
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[personal profile] ct_7567 2018-06-19 07:56 am (UTC)(link)
[ Unbidden, Cut springs to Rex's mind. As odd as it had been seeing a clone in that sort of situation, it's the closest he had ever gotten to experiencing a normal life. Seeing the daily lives of politicians and nobles doesn't count, nor does assisting with rebel factions, nor does the lives of refugees clinging desperately onto life.

What Cut has, though? That's what Rex has always thought it was like. A home of your own, with a partner, children, a job to tend to, a family to cherish and protect, knowing that they wouldn't perish the moment you turned his head. A dinner table, toys, requests to play in the field, eager smiles and shared glances that even someone as skilled in reading body language as Rex couldn't decipher.

He's quiet. He may be serious, but he's honest, and he wants to answer her question with the seriousness it deserves. ]


Routine. Going home to the same place every night, to the same people, and knowing reliably that every day is going to be much like the last. Peace, for yourself and your people.

[ It's a nice way of looking at it, but that's what they mean by normal, isn't it? The way things could be, not the way things are. ]

That's what we're fighting for, anyway.
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[personal profile] ct_7567 2018-06-26 05:32 am (UTC)(link)
Yes.

[ He won't tell her about Cut. Even though he doesn't think Vima would give him away, it's too risky. Cut's entire life, Suu's whole life, the lives of his children - they all hinge on one thing, and that's Cut remaining unnoticed. If he were to be caught, he'd be court-martialed, and then...

Then... what? Drafted back into duty? Sent for reconditioning? Executed for having the audacity to find a new family after the only one he had known had perished?

Rex hopes he'll never find out. ]


There are some families who want nothing to do with us. Fair enough. [ They only descend when things have dissolved into war and violence and misery. Nobody's ever happy by the time things have gotten to that point. ] But I've been deployed on other planets where they've invited us into their homes, offered us their hospitality. Theirs is a way of life worth protecting.

[ It's not a whole truth, but it's part of it, and part of what he's always believed. It's the face to what they're doing, why they do what they do. Maybe his own children will never have to live in the future they built, but why do they have to be his own for him to care? ]

Do you?
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[personal profile] ct_7567 2018-06-29 01:51 am (UTC)(link)
[ He shrugs. ] You're a Jedi. You're confined to your purpose, same as us.

[ Perhaps the way of the Jedi were different, back where - when - Vima was from, but that can't change everything. Being a Jedi isn't a job. It's a vocation. Everything that they do, their every emotion, their every move, their every task is for the purposes of being a Jedi, down to their very bones. Even moreso than being a clone. At least clones can feel whatever they wish, provided it doesn't interfere with their duty. ]

You're still young. I don't doubt that you'll meet someone like that one day.

[ He thinks, briefly, of Skywalker and Amidala. Of Kenobi and Kryze. ]

Life may take you in unexpected directions.
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[personal profile] ct_7567 2018-07-01 06:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Weren't you raised in the Temple? Alongside the other initiates? As far as my understanding goes, not all of them become Padawans, but all of them get the necessary training to be sent along that path, should that path be right for them.

[ He's never been in the Temple before, but he's heard things. Stories, jibes traded between Kenobi and Skywalker and Tano, enough terms and tales flung around for him to grasp at straws, figure out the truth of what their lives were before they became soldiers. He's never been certain what to think of it.

It's fine. He'll never see the inside of the Temple anyway. ]
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[personal profile] ct_7567 2018-07-04 07:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Not quite. Not all of us become soldiers. Not all of us can.

[ Sometimes clones come out wrong. Back in the day, that would mean they got culled - a detail that Rex wisely decides to leave out; he knows how horrible that had been and doesn't feel particularly inclined to hear Vima's educated opinion on the matter - but these days? They've found use for them. ]

But there are always other tasks that must be done. I've heard very much the same about initiates who fail to become Padawans. [ He pauses, hesitant in the way of someone not entirely certain of the answer, like a schoolboy reluctant to give an incorrect answer. ] I heard something about working in the gardens...?
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[personal profile] ct_7567 2018-07-10 09:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Rex isn't certain if it has much to do with flowers - he heard something about crops? - but hell if he knows. Maybe Jedi grow their own crops! They've always seen absurd to Rex (and, frankly, to the rest of his men) and he's grown not to question their odd customs and ways. Either way, he can't exactly correct her. He's only going off of things that he's overheard and observed with very little that's been verified. ]

They don't have families. [ That, at least, he knows. ] Their family's the Order. That's what would make it so difficult to leave.

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